Semoga Cepat Sembuh

Life is so unexpected and the world would never stop spinning, no..never!. You could be happy now bitching about Fuck-Face Humphries, and the next 2hours, you could find yourself crying, devastated, and even worst, when you got to know that your friend is dying.

This is what happened to me yesterday (05/12/2011). I was so happy chatting with friends in FB, sharing pictures, gossiping, . I kept on browsing and reading my friends' wall posts, til I read one of the posts mentioned '*****accident dgn lori, and she's still unconcious, she's badly injured, she's now tgh nazak'.....what???Ada betul ka?? And according to one of my friends, she was driving alone from Klang to Pahang at 4am...

I am now still trying to digest the catastrophe. Dear God, I hope that You help her to go through it, please..please save her.

1st Day After A Year

Donut..or Choon Seng...the guy that i used to love..the guy that i cried for every night.

No surprise...Im done with him..was my mistake...for fell in love with other guy while we were still together...at least..i didnt tell him lies...

Its been a year...remembering him means consuming my life. I gave me myself and him chances to get together again..but I think ive done enough. Obviously me and him..we were not meant together. So, I think its wise to disconnect anything that could re-connect me and him. I even deleting anyone that is related to him. I promise myself to continue writing and filling 'my scratch' till I can forget him..totally forget him. And the best thing...I stop telling him what I am up to now and where Im working,,not gonna tell him because we are no longer sharing the 'story'. Plus...would he be interested on my life???Because he once said to me..'Sophie..you should get a life. You are damn annoying...irritating...I need a space'...Yeahh..thats right. I think you really need a space...enjoy your SPACE then...

>>>>>I just love the new me..live life without a guy.

Painterly Prints

I flipped through the Cleo mag again today..and guess what I found..a really pretty painterly prints dress..which can be worn out day and night..cool huhh..I fall in love with the tiered asymmetrical dress from Envee which costs RM219..and a V neck shift dress from Sissley.The painterly print is a must have item for my wardrobe..and I plan to get a piece of it soon..really-really soon.Or..maybe I can just enjoy the 70% off...of RM219..it means..RM65.70..woww..Times Square huhh..or somewhere around BB there..it won't be exactly the same when we talk about the quality..but..go to hell with the quality..all I wanted to have now is a painterly print dress..I don't give a damn on the quality as long as it is not made from nylon..well..I am a cotton freak..cotton makes me happy..who doesn't love cotton..I must give a big Thank You to the Cleo for introducing me to this wicked print...at least I now have an outfit for a day-working and night party..in a day.There is no need for me to rush home for the party after working..simply just glide my lip gloss and do a quick touch-up..yeayy..I am ready to hit the dance floor..

Talking about the party..its been quite long that I didn't shake my ass on the dance floor..I am not busy doing something else,.but the truth is I have to forgone the party since my Donut always be beside me..hugging and kissing me..the best moment other than going to the party.Plus..Donut would never agree of the idea 'letting me to the club'..he would non-stop texting me..and calling me though he already knew that its hard for me to answer his answer..yaa..I don't have that super power ear to hear the phone ringing whilst its in my bag..come on Hunny..forget about it..one thing I know is..Donut is coming back really soon..and seriously I can't wait..

The 24th

Friday..its a lazy day.Woke up around 1pm..and I still can feel the burnt on my eyes.Its burning..burning..and burning.I was non-stop crying yesterday.Donut finally leaving me..well..I do understand that its only for a few months but still..as usual..I cant accept it.I am not ready for a thousands Kilometers away boyfriend..It would never be easier for me to have a long distance relationship.Its so hard..especially when I have to hug him before he left.

Talking about 24th of September..everything went wrong yesterday.I can't connect to the wireless internet..the skype wasn't working as it was before this..there was something wrong with it's mic..what makes thing worst was I can't get through my Donut..I was so sad I could not talked to him.There are so many things that I really want to say..its more than 'don't be notty' message..hopefully 'Skype' understand it how I feel...

Awhile

I just realized that I didn't really post a new entry for my scratchy scratch heart page..well..may be I was quite busy going out with my Donut..going here and there..meeting this people and that people..his friends of course..as far as I know we don't really hang out with my friends..except Ruffey..well..just once...its not that I don't want to introduce my friends to him..but what the matter is he always not free for that..

Talking about August and September..I think I made a good decision when it comes to the 'work job thingy'..I got accepted working as the ticketing reservation consultant for the Jetstar Airlines company which is a good start for me..a stepping stone for something higher..a good chance for me to find a new friends..other than the so not true yet so drama UiTM friends..well,.not all..just few of them..in fact, there is high possibility for me to meet the same type of friends...drama queen,.back stabber,.friend for convenient..and the list goes on and on..it will never end.Well..fair enough..I totally don't mind if I got that kind of friends because I know that they are not going to be with me 50 years ahead..Talking about the work...I am going to start a training on this coming 28th of September..next 2 weeks..a bit nervous,.but I am so excited to start a new job..plus,.I'm going to rent a room that just opposite to my work place...5 minutes walking and I will be in the office switching on my pc..I can't stop imagining that.The other thing is...about the dress code..oh-mi-God!!I can't believe that I'm goin to be in a casual wear no matter when and where..so,.that way I can save my bucks and buying something else..a washed out jeans maybe..I always wanting it..it is because I don't have one of acid wash jeans..thats why....moving to the pay offered by the company..its not that high but I think its a good amount for a freshie like me..not much working experience..and there are so many things that I need to learn..one thing for sure..I'm going to increase my pay to not just 1800..I think I should follow the rules law of doing more if I want to earn more...well...it seems that I don't really have many options other than working hard for the extra bucks..

Relationship...me and Donut..he is going back to Japan on this coming 24th..and I know that I am not going to send him off..not that I don't want to send him but its just that I feel so not wanted to be there..so,.I will just waiting for his call the next day..on 25th..and after that we will live a normal life we live before..seeing each other on skype for almost 24 hours..tehtarik him when I miss him..sharing our day..quarelling..merajuk and pujuk2 moment...and a lot more...thats what we did previously..and I think thats what we are going to do after he left Malaysia..soon...I admit that I will be very sad..crying the whole night on 24th..but I do believe that I will be occay the next day..

PAIN

A few weeks passed by..and I am still in the middle of uncertainty.Lots of things happened lately..and none of them could make me laugh.As far as I concerned..its been almost a month that I never laugh.(I am telling lie..well,.its not that I never laugh at all for these few weeks)..even for myself.Uhh..its so sad.And there is nothing I could do about it.Here..lemme tell you guys what is the culprit for these shitty thingy..I think a 'not accepted' relation is a common thing.I really understand how does it feels.It hurts..badly.I always feel that something just isn't right.Every day..every second..even when I was be with my Donut..I hate it so much when I have to see his 'in-between' face.Oh my God,.why does he always in dilemma every time he is seeing me.I feel that he is becoming not himself..damn..I hate that...
Another thing...sometimes I feel like I want to have a break..trying to run away from all these..well..at least I could ease the feeling,.(it is for both of our sake)..

FROM THE INSIDE

Its been awhile...I really miss posting some new entries..the truth is I have zillion stuffs to share..and almost all about my Donut..I just realized that,.he doesn't really take care of me.Donut..why must you treat me like a shit while you already know that I don't deserveto be treated like that.You..never be my side when I really need you..you keep made me blind with your words..keep telling me lies..a promise that end up with a tears.I hate it so much..but still..I don't get it..why must I still be with you..be with a guy that would not be able to keep his words.

VACATION

I finally reached the Terengganu bus stop.And now..we have to wait for another few hours for the ferry..Man..its sucks..!!I hate waiting.Waiting driving me made.God..I wonder is there anything that I can do except waiting??..as far as I concern and as far as I realized that..my life is full of the word..'waiting',,its endless..why?..why is it must be that way..

I am going to have a vacation with the people that I know nothing much except my own guy.There are four of us..two guys and two girls..err..including me of course.I am not sure whether I am going to have fun or not.Its a breaking the ice vacation to be exact...thats the name and the theme for the vacation if someone to be happen asking me about the vacation.Occcay..fair enough..fair enough.It doesnt matter..I can have fun by my own.There is no need to wait for the rest to arrange everything and to plan my activities.Yeww...never listed in my private and personal itinerary.I would never wanted to have someone to control my 'fun' side.Well...since I got that word blurted out from my mind...It looks like I have to prove that I can just smile widely for the whole day..

Lets checking on the list..Hot list I mean on what I should do during the first stay..

1. Get comfortable with my own skin...it means that try to get comfortable during the stay..and it carries the word..self-confidence..acting cool like there is always the good things..

2. Its clothing and the style feeder...errr..the truth is..going for a vacation is not in my list for this month.Because I aim for a washed out jeans that i haven't get yet...Occay..back to the style feeder.I think I just need to mix and match..I need to do it a lot..and a lot this time..luckily I have my striped flip flop..

3. Man!..looking for a hot man during a vacation..err..it sounds cool actually...but I am not going to do that this time.owhh..come on..my man is going to be by my side all the time.I swear I would lick my lips to the hot guys once my man start his move..flirting I mean..

4. Looking hot all the time..easy!!stand straight..sexy bod..have my lip gloss on..and yeay!!I am ready to go..I am not believe in a make over during a vacation..Thick make-up under the sun..during a vacation..walking on the beach??..yeww...Girls...go minimalis!!Go for the natural..and stay confident as i mention earlier..but never ever forget to have a good spf lather on your body...

Well..I have these four tips to live my not-so-friendly vacation..wish me luck people..the fact is ..I really love the vacation but going with the not-so-familiar people makes me breathless...

THE KILL

A hard day to go through again..I wonder what is really happening to my relationship.And I really need someone to talk to right now..not to give their precious opinion..I just need someone to listen.I hate it so much when I have to live like I have no one..a guy I mean not the family members..they are another story.I am not a girl who desires the perfection in life.No..thats not me.But,.I do need someone to be honest to me.Someone that could understand me.

To the girls out there..I really believe that you guys would agree with what I want to say..Life is just like hell when our own guy keep avoiding,.neglecting us.He said that he is busy with the family issues that would never end..but is he really telling the truth.I have a doubt..I wonder,.if you have to be in the 'family gathering/dinner/..etc'..is it a big crime if you text me?..and,.if it really is..who said that?.4 hours being in the crowd..for dinner..owh come on..its not a business conference baby..Yea..you told me before you are not allowed to text or on the phone while having your meal..but you are taking these things too seriously.And after dinner...still you fail to text me..thats too much.Again..you gave me the reason to escape..saying that.'I was in the bathroom..brushing my teeth..and I am about to call you'..Bullshit..I know that you were not going to call me if I wasn't.

And..how would you girls feel when your own guy asking you about the 'gang bang' thing..the 'threesome' thing..??..Its really hurt huhh..I never thought that my own guy could asked me that kind of question.He doesn't respect me at all.What did he thinks he is?..And after saying all these thing..hed just said..'sorry'..!What the hell...do you think that,..'sorry' would erase everything that you've said.?.and you keep telling me that you were just joking.But..the truth is you really mean it right..FYI..I am not that type of girl who just want to have fun..and big FYI..I love the word 'commitment'.If you are looking for a girl to be fun with..then I should let you go.I don't need that kind of guy.I need someone who knows how to appreciate me.It is obviously that,.I am wasting my time with a guy who refuse to respect me.Well..the fact is I don't expect you to treat me like a princess..seriously,.I don't know what is going on between us.

I HATE THIS GUY

I have this entry posted just to ease my mind...trying so hard to clear all the mess.Its almost 4pm..cloudy day..and its not a fun happy day to go through.Let me start the line with what had happened a year ago.I met a chinese guy,.average looking guy..introduced by one of my senior.It was February..and it doesnt took years for us to be 'together'.I am dating that guy..until now.Things went pretty well and we were so in love..and now..its been more than a year that we have been together.And I wonder if the '1 year and 3 months' takes us up a bit higher.To my surprise..its not!Thing doesn't work as what we have planned before.I find its hard to believe your word.I really hate to say that..'the guy that I knew for a year and officially my own guy had lost his interest on me'..he is not into me anymore..no wonder that he always shows the worry.I should have known...

LEVIS REUSED JEANS AND THE TURMOIL

I just won myself a pair of Levis Reused Jeans shoes.As far as I know about the shoes is,.it comes with a unique design for eacch pair of it.So,.thats mean there could be no second shoes with the same design.Sounds good huhh..Though I am not a big fan of Levis,.but still I feel damn lucky for being chosen as a winner.Well..everybody knows that its not easy to get something for free..even freebies has its own limited number to be given away.

And..tomorrow..I am planning to get a washed out jeans frrom MNG..it worths RM169.I already had the price on my head.Its super skinny too.Man..I can't wait to have it on.

Another thing that I really want to tell here..about me and Donut.I miss him so much..but it seems like there is a boundry between us.Its really hard to see him lately.It might sounds really oddd..because we have been seeing each other via skype only for a few months since last February. Its because no choice left other than that.But now..we actually still can meet up,.but its too hard.I am totally lost hope of our relationship..

I HAVE A 'FROM HELL' DATE

I went out with my Donut today..my first date with him since 6 months ago.Surprisingly,.I can't feel the excitement as I felt previously.I stepped in to his car with a mixed up feeling.I can't even gave him a smile.I was damn too carried away with the anxiety.First day meet up huhh...turn to a sour boy and girl dating day...what a day.It was only a few minutes that I can feel the sparks..the rest..??No need to mention..it was sour..sad,.and stressful..I don't know why..maybe its good to not seeing each other during his semester break.For the sake of you and me..I just don't want a fight..no more pressure in a relationship..no more stress..please.Thank God..I am going for the train and place program this coming Sunday.That way I can stay out-of-touch with him..there is no use of seeing each other if we don't really enjoy the moment..I hate it so much!!I know its not your fault..but I just can't accept it.We are going out together..try to have fun..but I can see that you were not really enjoy it..you were thinking of something else..worry all the time.Yes..I can see that.I can't forget how you react when received a text from your sister..I felt so guilty.I seriously think that,.we shouldn't going out anymore..Awhile may be.It hurts me so much..today officially a day where I feel like its not really a date.No warm hugs..and wet kisses..what I got today just..a few seconds hug..and quick cold kiss...yes..you did trying to give me perfect kiss..but it was really a cold..in-affection kiss..

I HATE THE LISTS

Woww..its been more than 3 weeks that I post nothing.There are so many things,.stories I would like to share.About my happiness,.sadness,.undescribed feelings..anything!!Its not that I forget about the blogging rules,.but I just never have a chance to do so.,and its nothing related to a 'TIME'.I am having 24-7 free time in Miri.I am still unemployed,.and still searching for job..hardly!!I just stay at home,.spending time with my niece and my naughty nephew..God!.He is a monkey.I don't think I can handle him by my own.Apart from that,.I just waiting for my Donut to text me every morning.,wondering what time he will call to wish me a good night.

Miri currently is not a good place to stay..we are battling with the H1N1,.the haze,.and the hot weather.My skin is so dry..and I can spot the blemishes around my face.The pimples,.uneven skin tone,.and it is so..rough!I have no idea of what I should do on it..put on a moisturizing mask??..Yes..I've done that..and it is part of my skin regime.Put on a mask twice a week..Drink 2L water a day..Listed!!..Eat more fruits and veggies..??It is a must for us..eh..??what did i missed huhh..clean it well before going to bed??..Occay..no excuse.we have to do the 'cleaning' before off to bed.Oh-Mi-God....I hate it so much,...

PENAN BANGLE

I flipped through The Borneo Post today and I caught on something that I believe could resulted the zero bucks in my pocket.A Penan bangle..its not really fancy after all..no sequins..no beads..but that simple carve had made me going crazy.I want to have it!!Soon..real soon..I am thinking of getting a couple of the bangle..well..maybe 5 or 6.This bangle is one of a kind.Made from 100% Sarawak woods..its a bit small,.the width I mean,.and it looks unique.Who can resist the ancient design from the Sarawak minority.About the price..I haven't check it yet.The price is unavailable..so,.nothing I can do.I try to check the price via internet but still..I didn't get any info regarding the price..Ough..that hard.Hopefully it would not turn me into a pennyless Sophie.Pity..There is smething else..about the maxi skirt.To be exact..my dream maxi skirt.I can't find the one that I really want to buy.The yellow-orange floral print on it.Big flaming orange floral..with a little dash of purpleand red.It must be very lovely.Wear it with my plain brown singlet and my tribal wide belt..and not to forget the power of the flip-flop.sexy huhh..love it so much.

LONG SKIRT

The combination is very nice..is it..blue skirt,.white tee with pink+red floral printed on it,.pair with a bright neon orange shoes/ballerina..big buckled belk or sash..studded hair band.Its totally cool!!People..people..I currently searching and browsing for a long skirt..It doesn't have to has a floral print on it or with lace.I just want a cotton skirt with a peaceful design..not so bright,.as I don't really have many plain or siple tee to go with it..and I think it would..mostly mae from a 100% cotton..it doesn't matter it was made from which country as long as it gives me an endless comfort feeling,.good price.err,..reasonable I mean..

Talking about the foot wear to go with the long skirts..some people would be brilliant enough o pair this long skirt with a thongs sandal,.strappy sandal,.wedges,.high heels..and even wearing it with a tall boots.. well..I have got my own principle and fun wearing the long skirt..just slip a nice comfy flip-flop..and tied up the belt around the waist..and voila!!!I am ready to catch those foxy eyes..it is effortless but yet,.it is still diva alike.

Occay..maybe..its not really a big issuebut when it comes to the top..it does a big issue..and I really hae it so much to see those girls wearing their log skirts..I mean the colorful long skirts...oughh..pair it with the riffled blouse during the sandy-beachy day out??frilled polka dot to a sexy beach party??Oh-mee-God!!I wonder if someone or her close finger-crossed friends ever told her that she really looks like grumpy granny..come on babe!!Take it off...its really cool if you just put on that simple tee...maybe just a singlet..and you are on the go..not too much please oncce you wear that long skirt...

THAT SHADES

I really want to buy his striped glasses..err..eye-wear..the one without the glass..I prefer the white color as I don't wanna look to hippie and too 'outstanding'.But..I fall in love with the orange striped glass..its funny huhh..I just mentioned that I don't want to be seen wearing the neon glasses which makes me look so hippie..Man..I have changed too fast..Occay..maybe I should buy two shades..white and orange..Wearing white during the normal odd day and perk things up by wearing the neon orange glasses..Plus..it suits my plain white tee verry well..I am not going to be plain as my tee..Err..maybe I should get the red too..it would suits my black checkers dress..I always looking as if I wanna go to the office everytime I have that checkers wrap around me..so,.with this red-magic glasses,.I will be on everyone's eye..I love it..gonna get them soon..MUST have them all..and let the people stare at me..is fun huhh..looking at how they spend a few second analyzing my new shades..

POLKA DOT MYSTERY

My another obsbession..a polka dot top with a lace detail.It looks really sweet and 'in' for this season tough many babes are craving for striped dress.But..polka dot would never let us down.Too bad that I never have had a polka dot inside my mighty closet..well..maybe I am lying..I think I have one..pink+black polka dot dress with a big bow..I wore it once to a friends hilled-out day..I met a friend from Penang.He came over to Shah Alam..and we chilled out talking about past,.and about current life as well..Back to the polka dot and lace detail..I realy want to have it,.wear it with my jeans..and pair it with a black short..cheeky!!I love it..ain't it the eye-popping factor..everyone???..I am browsing the online shops..again!!!I don't have an intention to buy actually..because I still have a strong believe on the power of the 'fitting room'..ot the mannequin.It always show what we want it to be.perfect and it shows the impossile figure to get.So fake...the dress may look really nice and sexy for that cheeky mannequin..but it can't guaranteed that it would fit well on our skin.Well..the mannequin doesn't have extra donut am I right..but we do have.Occay..maybe it sounds stupid..that I am sayin all this but still..I keep scrolling down the e-shop.Well..I just need the idea..owhh.come on..the dress are really nice and trendy..maybe I coud get few of them from Times Square..even The Mines..there are many fashion outlets that offer us the same fashion..lets take for example..I saw one of the striped dress that shown in the e-shop displayed in one of the outlet at Times Square..exactly the same..but the price is a bit lower from the e-shop.Yea..if you are the time-precious-person..you wouldn't wanted to spend your whole day being inside the mall..well..except me..I love shopping so much..and being inside he mall is a real shopping for me..I don't need the majority to agree with what I am standing for but this is a fact..plus,.you would never know if the dress.the outfit really suits you well..come on babes..you are not the perfect mannequin..and some of them look gross..too!!What the hell with that large ..huge thigh..its so not real!Another thing..once you made a purchased you wouldn't be able to return it back or refund..as I said before..in case the outfit doesn't suit you..see..!we finally realized that we are alrady waste that bucks for nothing..wasting for a stupid ugly outfit!!Urghh..I can't tolerate it..

FUN GOING OUT

I went out with Fynaz today..to KLCC..err.as if we have nowhere to go.I wore my new top..100% cotton..and purple color floral printed top..and with that black not so skinny belt wrapped around my waist.Teamed it with a black tight and white high heels..and,.as usual I would carry my brown color boho bag along with me.A little bit touch of crystal add the bling factor in me..love it..
I miss taking picture like the one above..I mean..taking the pictures posing like this.A walking picture they call it.ehm..whatever.If only Raffy..and Boboy were going out with us today..there will be a walking picture..and a spontaneously pictures to be uploaded here..too bad,.they are not.
Its Fynaz..Siti Shafinaz.Shes cute and got a sense of humor.I feel comfortable with her and we can talk almost about everything.Fashion,.books,.foods..guys..family..job...etc.Err..I just realized that I look super fatigue in this shot..its obviously show..just look at my eyes.Well..not having a good quality slep I guess.Should be...
That Extra Half An Inch..by Victoria Beckham.I really want to buy this fashionista secret..but I didn't have extra cash.Too bad,.I missed it again..nevermind..I will get it soon..Its a must have item that I should list it down under my 'Wishing List'..or,.maybe I can ask Donut to buy for me..ehm..get it for free...Yeay..!
My new ring..it costs less than 10bux..its not as huge as Fyn's whitey pearly ring..but it looks nice and I ccan wear it anytime.For a formal working day or sunday outing..Oughh..why do I have to mention the word 'working day'..?I am unemployed at the moment..and atively searching for job..wish me luck people..so that I an buy many clothes..shoes and bags..owhh ya..vacation with Donut too..

MY CHAYOTE

My hunny is still not yet reach home..he,.at the moment at his friend's place..gaming as usual..and after that he would be going to the market.Buying food stock for a few days..may be for a week.I texted him and asked him to buy himself a good food..read meat..veggie and fresh fruits.I want him to have a balance diet beause he said he really want to reduce his weight.

Its almost 8pm..at my place..and I just had a chayote soup.I made it myself.Asian way..stir the chopped onion and garlic,.altogether with a dried shrimp and chilli,.then I just add the ddiced of chayote squash..stir until it become a bit tender and bring to boil..add some salt and pepper,..chicken sock powder..and slurrp.Easy to prepare..all I need is 15 minutes to get it ready into my soup bowl.It even tastier if I add fresh shrimp or crabmeat into my soup.,altogether with diced carrot..its yummy..Some people prefer to add chayote into their chicken soup..mix it together with iceberg lettuce by baking it,.sprinkle some salt and paprika.. and healthy virin olive it..Its totally would leave you crave for another bite..trust me..

TOO MUCH TO SAY

Every night before I close my eyes..Donut will give a call to have a sweet chat and to wish me a to have a very good dream.But,.I do realize that calling me before sleep always makes my Donut wake up late and end up he got scolded by the lecturer.I feel so guilty!!I am the culprit for all of this.He doesn't have a good sleep at night..not enough sleep and he said that he frequently fall asleep in the class.Sometimes..he sleeps around 4am aand have to wake up for the 9am class.Less than 5 hours sleeping and its totally not enough.Its all because he has have to talk to me,.try to expplain to me why he can't really spending time with me on the phone.Ough..occay..I have to accept that because it is really TRUE.He got the points.Well..I have a solution for that actually..I told him to spend mre time talking on the Skype..video cam chat with me..It is much moree better.Yes..we do skype-ing each other.Everyday..but,.after saying hello..hi..Hunny..baby..then we just quiet.silent..as if we have nothing to say.Then after that,.he just spending time on his own.Doing reports..that he needs to submit by tuesday.No big deal.,because he got no choice other than to makesure its all done a day before submission date.Then..gaming!!I don't really compromise with it.Occay..I do understand that he needs his own space.Have to meet friends for games..spending times with your friends playing PS3.Then,.I end up waiting for him to get back to me before I go to bed.He did asking me to text him while he is away..but will e reply my text.??No..never..'I can't reply your text because I was crying over joy playing games'..thats what I have to deal with.Fantastic!!Then..coming back home,.waiting for him to step out from shower and dry his hair..after that,.lets go to sleep..Errgh..what he hell?.yea..we do spending ttime every day and every night, but why is it always work this way..I wonder.Calling me before sleep..you only want to hear those sweet word coming from my mouth..you don't want any complains or else you might spending time try to get me back to the line..and you patronizing me 'Yeah..I can't go to sleep..can't go to the class..'..God..!!I never say that you can't go to sleep..and listening to the lecture.Its a good thing hunny..the truth is I want you to know that I really miss spending time with you..a good quality time..not just sit in front of the PC ad thats all..no,.not that..when I try to explain to you...you start to patronize me and it hurts..it left me feeling so guilty!.and,end up I come to a conclusion.I don't want to complain anything to him..whatever happen between us is nothing to do with you.You don't want to hear comlains..because its totally distacting you..and annoy you.So,.I guess by pretending everything is fine will work for us.Well..may be I just need to talk to friends..ask for their advices..and thats it..end of the story.