ANOTHER 5 THINGS

I was still in a 'staight hair'mode..people said that I look like a good girl..and I agree with them..I look like a girl who knowing nothing about how life could get more interesting...rather than reading those thick books and piecess of note..Err..the truth is..I wasnt that geek-oh-freak..I was the same Sophie..
Trying this black and red dress in Voir..I was deeply fall in love with this tribal dress..really wish that I have a poket full of money...
I went to Chilling River with my Donut..took some picures and just have a blast with he nature..breath some fresh air..and felt the cold water running through our skin..it was damn cold and refreshing..wanna get there again someday..
I love this outfit..my white and black checkered dress..paired it with hat black wide belt..and covered stockings..I even wore it to the office.once..love it so much..plus..I feel comfortable in it..

Anna Sui look alike ring..its fyn's.and that white framed glasses..(bubui's)..God..i can see my own reflection on the glass' surfae..ehmm..hat ring remind me of mine..I think I was misplaced it somewhere..should I still trying to find and searching for it..or just buying the new one..?Err...i just costs me aroundd 7 bucks..

FINE DAY

Its not Sunday..but it still a find day or me.Doing nothing but I just spending time relaxing aat home..watching TV.DVD-Harry Potter..writing for a new post..checking my Facebook,.viewing my friends' pictures and try to gte cclose to them.Seriously..I got nothing much to do at home.A bit hungry at he moment but I just hadda slice of cheese cake..so,.how come im still hungry??..Thats what the jobless people do everyday..being stucked at home and doing nothing.Ough..I supposed to enjoy the moment..because this coming Thursday I have tto attend an interview for a recruitment post.Something related to the human resource.God..I know nothing much about this thing but I will try my best to get the job..or else I end up unemployed..and I know it would effect me much.So..I think I better get myself prepared..must do some research about the company and the job itself.Thats the best way I should do..I guess.

Its almost 4pm..and I am still glued in front of the PC..skyp-ing with Donut.He asked where is my new post entry??..he wants to read it..Funny lil' Donut,.he loves reading people's blog..but he is his?.He doesnt even want to create his own..By the way,.I just told him that he doesnt look good in his striped shirt..and he immediately change his shirt.Err..actually,.I never have the gut to tell him about how weird and funny does he looks before this..but since he always criticizing me,.so I think it would be occay for him.He can take it..as long as its not too much.He is about to go to work actually..5pm at his place..then,.I would be bored again..I think im goin to indulge myself again..watching Harry Potter,..

OFFICIALLY UNEMPLOYED

Sigh..I finally resign working as a sales person..and theres no regret..only a great feeling of..relieves..but still..there is something that i really taking into my account..its a..'Job hunting' thin..I have to find new jobs..new field..I mean something hat is totally not related to the sales..I hate it so much..so much..Wish that I could get a job that is worth 'working hard on it'..actually,.I am so regret for turining down tthee job offer as a customer service officer last month..high pay..almost RM3k..but I dont know why am I so blind and couldnt see the bright opportunity..I shouldnt do that...

Owhh..I just read a blog..own by someone that related to my Donut..it was all about Love..how she finds a guy that finally she had a crushed on..then..telling that guy how does she feels toward him..and end up..the guy get freaked out.I guess..that guy mustbe not ready for any commitment..she is a pretty girl that guys would find it hard to resist but I think she really need to takes thing slowly and try to play had to get for the next time..that way..she could be more appreciated by those highly-demanding-end up-getting nothing guy...

TRANSFORMERS

How can I forgot to write about 'TRANSFORMERS'..I wonder.May be I was too excited talking about those new blouses and shoes that i just baught.Actually..watching Transformers was my first plan on last Friday..thats thee first thing I ha on my mind..I need something that could ease and calm my wired mind..well..I did mentioned earlier..I was so messed up..and screwed up too..I guess enough about that..

The thing is...I didnt even have a chance to enjoy the movie.It was full house.No more ticket..thats mean no more seat.God.I wonder how are those people gonna enjoy the movie..I mean those who baught the 1st row seat near to the screen..doesnt it painfull??..you might get your neck cracked people..!!Trust me..but,.do they care..?..I dont think so,plus..there is nothing to do with me if they get their neck racked or something..its totally none of my business...and the fact that I knew is..I was amn frustrated because I cant watch it..was waiting since last month before the premiere..and,.end up,.I must wait for another weekend for the weekend-movie blast.Thaat sounds..phatheic

IM CRAZY

Sunday outing..I went to Sogo with my sister and her husband.She got a purple-striped blouse for me.Another piece for office wear..again.Actually..I was looking for an off-shoulder shirt..but I just coulnt find 1..was kinda regret because I turned down the girly-girl printed off shoulder shirt last couple of weeks..I wonder.whee an I get that nice-to-see price..RM40..seriously..the price had made me crave for it..its a mouth-watering price..no one could ever resist to buy that shirt..but,.why didnt I just grab it and bring it back home..??Think I could find it somewhere else huhh..but now,..I just realize that it is so hard to find that devil off-shoulder tee..Ough..this ttime..I must make sure that im gonna have it next week..it is 'A MUST'..come on..its just RM40..where else I could find that nice off-shouler shirt with that super reasonable price.Yes..its cheap!.The next thing in my list is..dual-function bag from Guess..black and white bag....RM500..I am very sure that I can bring it back home the next 2 weeks..Owhh..I just cant wait..that floral bag had drive me insane...if only I got mor and more cash inside my pocket..I wont wait for this long...

SATURDAY SHOPPING DAY

Its a Saturday shopping day again.I just get myself 2 pair of shoes..black gladiator high heels and white studded shoes.Both are comfortable to wear and the price..reasonable..I still can afford them.I hadd a big experience with my white peep toe heels fromVincci..my skin burnt..and I have to peeled off the skin..God..it hurts..Im not sure whether I still can walk with that bloody shoes.I baught it for about 2 years..moree than 2 years if Im not mistaken.but..how come my 6 sized feet still ccant get used to it.The same thing goes to my beautiful sexy red shoes..it doesnt really fit to my feet well..but is 6 sized.I dont know whats wrong with it..I love that red pointed shoes so much.its not easy to find a shoes that its color match well with my tanned skin..owhh..is it??...Well..never mind..since I have baught 2 pair of shoes..so,.hopefully both of then wont bring me down.Please..please...

Owhh..ya..I also baught a purple blouse..brinjal color..Im going to wear it with my white spaghetti inside..because its quite revealing..and I am very sure that Donut would be mad if he fid out that Im wearing that kind of shirt to work..since I already have that brinjal blouse..should I colored my nail in purple..?Or..just let it clean and clear with a tansparent nail care..or..should I colored it with peach or red?..its seriously a big issue for me..I also bring home that white and black checkers pinafore to wear with my dull and tooplain shirt..paired it with my legging or..what about the full-covered stocking..?..maybe it looks seven better if I paired it with that blak short..and get it 'talk to the world' by adding upsome acessories like chunky bangle or necklace..and super-sized fashion ring...Im gonna wear it the next friday...I ant wait..

THAT GUY THING

I just read '50 things you should know about your guy'..and one of them is..say nothing about his mom.It is because his mom is an ideal woman that should be respected by others and besides that they also learn how to protect the girl from their parents relationship..as how his dad protect and love his mom.So,.just stop questionning about his mom..and,there is a funny statement about a guy.They could not ever agree with the way of the girl do their shopping..women spend a lot on clothes,.shoes,.bags,.make-up and skin care,.and for 'a fridge' too..the guy would think that the women only know how to waste their money without realizing that they..the guy I mean..wasting a big amount of money on their ride..come on guy...why should you questionned us a lot if you are doing the same thing..worst than us..sometimes..the number 9 is..when the guy dont love their girlfriend or partner anymore..'honey..I am kinda busy with hell lots of work..so,.I think it is for the sake for both of us..I dont wanna hurt you..'and..'Its not you..its me'..ough..what the hell..and what happen if the guy is so into that girl..?..'You are the only one'..they would dying just to get that girl around their arm.Well..a guy will be a guy..they would never change and would never accept their mistake..sounds so not fair huhhh...

CRAP!!!

I am screwed up and messed up.So many things that I have to think of..and I dont even know when would I be able to rest my mind..the job hunting made me crazy.I have no idea which one I should go for..I dont want to make the same mistake..just like the one that I faced now.I was desperately to be employed right after the uni..and,.my dream came true.I was signing a contract a month before my last paper..it sounds really good huhh..bullshit!!I end up feeling miserable..its no wonder that I keep complaining to my 'scratch' lately.I dont feel like talking to the people about this crap..because I know,.its not their shit,.so why should they bothered.I also dont want to talk with donut about this matter..I am afraid hat I might scolding him..and blaming him for no reason.That is why..I prefer to just..keep myself in a silent mode..better...Its not fair for him to keep listening to all my craps..Ya..I do understand that sharing is a good thing..it could ease the problem..but,.I dont want to be the 'subject matter'or all the time.Its always me..me and me.I cant imagine of how does he feels when he had to listen to my complains..everyday..every single minutes..and seconds..and its always about the same thing,.ya..Iabout how sucks my work is,.about..how much I feel like I want to just leave and find a new job..about..everything about that crap.

BIG DILEMMA

I just apply for a new job...recently.And,.whats good about it..I got a call from the agency..ask me to go for an interview..next monday.God..thats too fast..I never thought that they would view my resume and give me a call that quick..seems like I am not gonna have a sweet moment to chill out at least for a couple of week after the hectic UNI thing.There is another thing,.I have a big major phobia towards a new 'job'..Well..afraid that it might end up just like my current job,.doing sales again..Urgh..the word 'SALES' seriously would bring me down..because I know,.I would never be happier chasing for money on the sales floor.

About my donut..I thought that he would be happy when he gets to know that I am going for a job job interview...actually I was short listed for a management trainee position..working in a Singapore.My donut said..he wanna work there.So,.I was thinking that,.it might be a good idea to work there whilst waiting for him.But..I think I get thing wrongly..he doesnt even smile or show how glad he is...knowing that I am going for the interview.It leaves me in between..I dont know whether I should go for the interview or just forget it..and find the other job based in KL..well..I just dont know which one I should go to...

I DID IT AGAIN

Its almost 9pm..and I just come back from work.Tired..hungry..sleepy..but I still have time for my 'scratch'..because I know,.'scratch' always listen to what I say..Err...it should be what I typed actually.Its been more than a week that I have been working..and I am getting sick of the tasks given.The truth is I start to hate my job..I dont like calling the people,.pretending that I am the CEO too..raise my voice up..Oughh..I was trying the hard way to make my voice sounds like it firm..and attract the prospect.Man..I just cant do that.I am naturally a soft spoken girl..I have to admit that.I cant even shout at other people..and I am not firm enough for this kind of job.Plus,.I cant stand the long working hour..damn..its more than 8 hours..I have to do the research after working..Thats mean after 530pm.Have to stay back for an hour just to get thing done.The pay is just not worth for the time I spent for those crap..there is another thing,.I feel like I dont have a life since I am working with this company.I cannot spend more time in front of the PC as usual.Thats mean..I cant spendind time with my donut.My manja-manja donut.Pity him..for becoming a victim..I always get mad at him.Get mad over nothing..blaming him for a small thing..God..what I have done..I have made a mistake..I cant control my stress level..and it ends up controlling my life..and controlling my relationship.I am afraid that if anything happen to me and donut.I wanted hin to be by my side..always.I could never live without him.He is a man who knows hor to respect me..a man who loves me..and he is a man that made my life more meaningful.See..how much he means for me.That is why I could still posting a new entry in my 'scratch'..I want to webbie with him..and cure my fatigue-disorder..erhhh

ACCIDENTALLY BECOME A PORN STAR

I just read an article about 'You Are Not A Pornstar' byAngela Lee..its in Cleo Magazine.I read through the whole thing..try to put myself into the victim shoes.,and imagining what would I do once I found myself accidentally being an effortless famous star-its a porn star,.to be exact.God,.the fact is,.its a no old issue that we were used to talk about..and this is totally not a joke.I just cant imagine seeing myself caught in the act..viewed by many people.then,.the next day my colleagues would give a cheeky smile..saying that..'hey..you are really good..girl.You go..I like it when you...and bla...bla..blaa..'and laugh their ass out loud.Thats what the guy might say.and what about the girl..the eyes sharply stared at me..bitching around..and looking differently at me as if I carry the disease.Damn,.and me myself would have a big fight with my loved one..'Look what you have done..honey.The whole world knows who is..me'..Owhh..there is no way out when you found yourself starred in that show..seriously..there is nothing,.we,..I mean the girls could do when all the private contents are being uploaded in the internet.Report the content.?Yes..we can do that.But,.before the content is being removed by website service.But,.it could not guaranteed us that he would not upload the same content in the different website.It could become worst than we could think..He got the copy of it,.both hard and soft copy.And we might dont have the idea..what happen to the copies that he has.Share them with his friends..laughing hardly till it makes them hurt,.ough..we just dont have an idea.But,.whatever it is,.the accidently porn star thingy is haunting me..it is just like a ghost of myself lingering around.I guess,.many of us regret the 'content'..the only thing that we could do now is..try to ask him to delete the contents and swear not to capture that 'oh-so-sweet moment'..

DREAM BIG

I just baught 3 pairs of panty-hose.2 skin color and the other one is gray.I spent for almost RM30 for those hose.Hope that they will suits my new outfits.I hate it so much when I found that I baught the stuffs just to get my closet full for nothing..err..a trash.Owhh..yaa...I finally baught a couple of spiral-rubber hair tie.Black and that natural..transparent spiral.I wonder..why I always got the black into that shopping bag.Why cant I took the red..instead of the black?..I am becoming the black-dolly girl.Isnt it because I am too inherited with the formal office thing?.I was thinking of buying a super-cool off shoulder shirt with the black girl printed on it.It costs RM170 and I dont have money budgeted for that shirt.Well..maybe I should buy the one that I saw yesterday in The Mines..it only costs me around RM40..worth buying it.I just cant wait to get my first pay.The first I will get into my bag will be that cool shirt..and second will be a nice floral 2 functions bag from Guess...in black.Good for mall outing,.night at the cinema..and I can see it looks so ideal to go with me to the office..I just need to tote it..or,.as a hand bag.Cool..isnt it..seriously it wont let me down for bringing it back home.

Damn..there is another thing that I really want to have..shoes..of course.I found myself extremely desperate to have a comfortable yet so chicks stilleto.I was just bought a pair of black peep toe high heels..but it burnt out my toe..man,.it hurts.So..what I can do now is justa waiting for the first pay from the company that I work with now..I will hunt for the items once I get the pay..26..please..come to me earlier that you should.And..hope that they will pay me for this month..please..at least I can get half of my pay...woww...dream big huhhh...

OFFICE WEAR SUCKS!

I went to The Mines today..was enjoying myself buying the office wear.2 skirts and 1 black blouse.I really love the blouse..its unique though its black.And whats the best thing about it..was the price.Oh..God..I baught it for only RM34.I was about to buy both black and white blouses..but then I end up to bring home the black.Its the same design..why should I waste my money on it.Guess,.I better buy the different design of the wite blouse..later.About the skirts..I guess today was a Chanel-to-be day.Both 2 of my skirts are black and white.I cant wait to wear them.Hope it would suits me well..really,..really well..and the next I expect from them is..comfort.Its a big matter to me.That is why I really fall in love with the cotton..they are comfortable,.down-to-earth price,.easy to wash..and it even sexy to wear.They really are..it is effortless to look sexy by wearing them.And..there is another thing.I suddenly feels that it is a must for me to have a vintage dress..or maybe..skirt..top..whatever it could be..but,.can I wear those vintage to the office..or it would create another issue??..I only been working for a week..and I start to get sick of wearing those boring office wear.Cant I just wearing whatever I like..and I really wish that I could wear my ballerina flat to the office.,not to forget the fully covered stockings..and leggings..and I wonder when would I wear my green panelled boho dress to the work place..it would look really nice when paired with the legging and my white peep-toed shoes..it is.Ough..may be I should stop dreaming..It wont happen.Id better get myself used to those ugly office wear..damn..I wonder how long I can stand of all this shit..its really torturing me..mentally of course.

I NEED WATER

I just realize that,.my body need the H2O badly.Its no wonder that I get dizzy easily,.I feel like I was dragged to the hell..with my head spinning around,.puke,.and diarrhoea..I really hate this part.I was damn miserable for the first and second day working.Is this the price that I have to pay for working with those smart to be people..do they really are?.Crap.'Maybe you are lack of sugar'..thats what my Donut told me.And he was right..too.For the next morning,.I have a big gulp of Ribena..Tutti-Frutti Ribena..and I enjoyed my mineral water for that day.thanks to Donut..I found myself a bit energertic and I was quiet interested with the training conducted by my company.Was damn sleepy for the couple previous day.,listening to what my trainer said..was fucking boring.But I have to absorb those craps..no choice.Cant wait to find a new job.

Back to the H2O thing again.,again,.I felt really bad this afternoon.All I can see was the stars..man,I felt so miserable.I just cant got off my bed.I guess I was dehydrated again.,though I just had a big sized mug of plain water..and it was cold.I thought that big mug would quenched my thirst,.hell..I was wrong.It didnt helps.I only found myself lying on my bed,.doing nothing..and I looked like a pig.I wonder,.do have to drink a really,really big and large tank of water just to quench my thirst??Man..I dont know what had happened to me.Nevermind..I am thinking of a solution for the next week.I think I better had a big bottle of water..readily from home.Actually,.there are many mug that I can use,.and,.of course.,there is a water dispenser.But,.I dont feel like I wanna use that mug.Ough...I hate using the 'thing' that is not mine..and what even worst..I dont like sharing.Err..its for hygienic purposes.

IM TIRED

Its been 4 days I didnt updating my scratch.There were lots of thing happened,.lots to share and lots to think of..I just started a week as a sales executive and it was damn tiring.Physically and mentally..not to mention the newly formed of my eyebag..God,.it is getting worst..and ugly.I need more sleeping time.6 hours a night is not for a girl like me.I need at least minimum 7 hours to keep me stay fresh..and radiant.Ough..that sounds like I am on TV..The truth is..I hate it so much when I didnt get enough sleep..I feel like dead..My brain fail to function well...and I feel damn weak.As if I walk and crossing the desert island..alone,.miserable..I was totally messed up.Man..this job kinda tough to me.I dont like it..plus,.I have to use 100% of my energy waking up early in the morning,.530 am every day except for weekend.Walking to the monorail station,.to the office,.to the food court,.to the bus stop.Its freaking tiring,.and I am getting sick of all these.It is good that if I can fall asleep easily whenever I get through the tough day.At least I would not feel like I am dead,..now.I just dont get it why I cannot sleep though I know that my body and my mind crucially need it.and..I do yawn zillion of times..I am thinking of applying a new job in other industries..well..maybe I will opt for the hospitality line.Its not bad by the way,.working in the hotel though as a Guest Service Agent.At least I enjoy doing my work..less potential getting wrinkles on my face.Everybody knows that 'Happy' is an anti-aging.,naturally.And..there is another fact of me,.I dont really aim to get more money 'by my own'.I just want to have a beautiful life,.exactly what I want.My current job demanding my full commitment on it which I already knew that I am not going to give it a try for so long.A month is more than enough for me.So,.I guess...tomorrow is going to be the day where I would be busy like a bee looking and selecting the vacant job and applying like hell..

FIRST 'WORKING' DAY

Today is my first day being a the work place..'first working day'.Damn..its very tiring..and today would be the most hectic day.I have to walk a lot.Going to this station.that staation...then have to walk for about few minutes to my work place.,and walking alone makes me more exhausted.There is another thing..being alone is totally a 'talking to myself activity'.I hate it so much..that such 'activity' should be done well at home..during weekend..or dduring my spare time..but not my weekdays..God..hope that I can get used to it faster..

Another issue...I forgot to take a picture of myself wearing that-so-corporate outfit.Sorry donut..i only I have 5 minutes free time..I am vey sure that,.I could share that picture with you..and,.I am going to upload it in my album (FaceBook)..but,.the problem is,.I just couldnt do that,.I was kinda busy reading those yucky stuffs..and it makes my head spinning around.Hope that you understand..dont be mad occay Donut-Hunny...

My KS360...I guess there is something wrong with you..why is it so hard to put a silent mode..why you still ringing loudly when I was in the middle of the mess..God..I was so embarrass..by you..of course.Then..what happen to you when I set "you" to a loud mode..??You refuse to ring loudly..and what even worst..you had made my Donut become 'marah' with me...hope that you wont betray me again tomorrow.because I really need you to co-opeate with me well..please.please....

ROUND 'N' ROUND

My cleopatra fringe is getting longer.Grr..if im not mistaken.,I just cut it last 2 weeks.I never thought that it could grow as long as I can see it now.I dont know whether I can cut it myself later,.well,.I know its just a fringe,.but,still...Im not good at it.I always leave it to the expert,.they just know what to do with it.But..there is no choice left for me.I have to make sure that I look neat and have that 'ready for the office' look.I dont want my future colleagues think that I just come back from shopping or just about to go for the 'maxi dress' hunting.

Thre is another thing..I am thinking of taking along my compact camera with me.Well,.I just want to capture the moment for the first time being in the office tomorrow.Plus,.I think it could be fun,.I an view back the look of 'butterfly' me,.foot step to the office.Hope that I could get along wih my new colleagues..well,.its very important to me..not just to me I guess,.but it is something crucial for the new worker like me.

Still..there is another issue about tomorrow.What should I wear for tomorrow??Shouls I wear that pink blouse.,or that green plain blouse..?Paired it with that black skirt,.or brown skirt or just put on my black slack??I just couldnt decide which color that suits me well and a bit confuse of putting on the ksirt or a slack..Erghh..maybe green is good ffor a first day..no,.may be pink could help me to boost my confient level??...

ENGLISH COTTAGE

Its Sunday and I decided just to stay at home..doing nothing.I really feel the need to calm myself today,.God,.Im quite nervous about tomorrow.First day being as an employer and for the first time ever I have to spend my 6am to 8pm outside of the house.,blend in with the people that I never know and never had a wish to know them,either.I just couldnt imagine what the hell is might happened to me tomorrow,.Im so clueless.Hope that tomorrow would bring a great day for me.

Sunday is also a great day for a home-movie marathon..that is watching TV.I woke up at 12 today and straight away spending for almost 4 hours sitting in front of he TV..Watching the British movie called Emma and The dark has rise.Both had pictured the beauty of the nature.I suddenly feel like I want to live in that English cottage,.beautiful garden,.listening to the pretty little birds early in the morning,.smell the sweetnes of the fresh dew on the rose petals.,touch the cold and soft grass..fresh air..lov eit so much.Not to mention the smell of the woods..it gives me an inspiration.Well..that movie gave me a little bit of 'Shakespeare'.Im so in love with it..isnt ir so sweet to have a tea with my Donut during the evening..talking about a beautiful day..sharing the nice story of the people around,.joking and sharing the laugh together..and it would becoming an unforgetable moment for he both of us.

WISH LIST

Im in love with that loose semi off-shoulder top.I wonder where can I find those with that huge 'heart' print on it.The one that I have in my closet is so plain..I want something different with an extra size printed on it..and,.yellow.I am currently 70% into yellow.Actually..yellow is not my color but I think I really need a variaty..maybe,.,its good to give a rainbow to my closet.But I dont have an idea why must I choose yellow..and,I really feel the need and a must to buy that yellow semi off-shoulder..Damn,.there are so many things that I want to buy..not to mention that leopard printed tight,.and white toga top.Ough,.I really wish that I would never short of bucks.I need money..I really need it..and I keep trying to fit myself into that nice floral spring/summer maxi dress in front of the mirror..the outlet fitting cubicle.I really want to take it home with me, but I think I should be more wisse when it comes to the 'fashion hunting'.Ough..come on.I am not a princess..nor a celebrity or a fashionista,.I cant afford to buy that exxy dress.Plus..I dont think I would wearing it again and again.Unless..if I were Paris Hilton or that posh Victoria Beckham..then I just take it home like nothing happen to my wallet.Nevermind then,.maybe I could find the best deal later..and, here is the wish list..>things that I want to have..

1.Black and white floral printed dual functions bag from Guess.

2.Leopard printed tight.

3.Yellow semi off-shoulder top with a cute huge size print.

4.Maxi dress..with a little bit knitted on it.

5.MyVi..this one seems to be the most important if compare to the ohers...

TOMORROW

I am thinking vey hard now...of what I should wear for tomorrow.Maybe.I shoould wear a white almost plain tee..paired with a black legging and long grey teenage vest...wih a white peep toe heels...or,.maybe I should wear that green top with my black legging..or..do I look better in my striped shorts and put on a simple spaghetti.Ough..keep thinking..and keep thinking..and what about my hair?..what I should do with that 'naughty mane'.as far as I concen,.my mane would never listen to me..so far!Should I just pin it..or just ask for help from y headgear..or,..should I just leave it like that..Ough..come on..its only a day out with friends..do I have to think like I am going to have fun with someone from a royal family..duhh..as if..

But..tomorrow is going to be an excited day..for the first time ever..since 2003..I have a chance to hang out with my ex-school mate.True and Ngu...and True told me,.she would bring her friend along for that 'electro' friends meeting up.Owhh..another one new friend..Night time..I wonder which outfit that suits me well for the night..What if I wear my green+yellow satin dress..will it look nice on me?.or will I turn into something else..you know..a wall flower..or maybe I will look more like a celebrity..Oughh..thats too much..I never expect me myself to turn into that celeebrity look alike..never!!Because I know..they are all too fake..and a litle bit too much..But,.I think that satin dress will help me to create such an amazing night..I wore it once last time..went for clubbing with my donut..but I forgot to bring my camera to capture that blastfull night..and I think it will look grat if I put my pearl necklace on it..and slip on my white peep toe heels..bingo!!.I think its really perfect..gotta have a camera ready in my bag tomorrow..so,..TOMORROW..here I come...

TOGA TOP HUNTER

Its been quite long I didnt posting anything on my blog.I wasnt really busy, but I was just spending my 24 precious hours doing nothing..watching TV,.laughing with my friends,.window shopping and eating..and taking those beautiful+ogre looking pictures.Damn...seriously I got nothing to do at home..and at the moment I am listening to Avril Lavigne-Dont Tell Me..whilst writing and posting a new entry on my 'A Scratch'.I suppose to get to know my examination result today,.but untill now I couldnt..stupid UiTM..they said the results will be uploaded on the website today,..but as usual..dont really trust them much..I click the website many times but I got nothing..Duhh..I think Id better check the result tomorrow..or maybe tonight...And I really hope that I could get a good result..though I wasnt really have a better understanding on my studies..and the fact is,.I wasnt ready to seat for those papers..but,.as usual,.I have to because there was no choicce left..whether I ready or not..there was nothing I could do...what a life...

Its almost 6pm and Im still in front of the pc..viewing those pretty pictures of my friends...and kep myself update with the world..reading news...and here it goes..as usual,.I cant help myself from being attracted to the 'Toga Top'..maybe.,it because I still havent get it yet..White toga top..with a bit of lace detail..I dont want too much details on it..or else I might looks like a grumpy Mrs.Johnson..and I keep looking and searching for a best deal..err..not too expensive please..I know I ccannot afford too exxy Toga Top...plus..I dont think I would wear it the next 2 or 3 years later....anyone.please..if you read my blog..please..and please help me to find that 'best deal' Toga Top...I really need it to be paired with my black skinny and that olive green shorts..

MY NEW GLADIATOR

Knock..knock...its 9am..and its Sunday..oughh..and I have to open the door with my eyes half-opened,.just like Garfield..luckily I am not orange..and I dont have tail..'Wake up..hurry..1030 we will off to Shah Alam..'..ohh yeayy..I quickly made a move to the bathroom..10 something,.I tried to reach my instructor..asking whether he got my P license done,.and he said,..'Its with me now..what time you want to take it?.'..and I told him..I might reach shah Alam around 1130..'Owh..I'm on my way to Sabak Bernam..cant I just pass the license to your friend this evening.around 6pm?'..Dunkkk..I was thinking that I am going to get the license today,.but it seems like I have to go by myself tomorrow to get it...no big deal..at least I have a chance to meet my ex-classmates..and I already send a text to Azs..and plan to hang out during the night..yeayy..I cnt wait!!!..

Me,.my sister and my brother-in-law went to OU...I bought myself a new fully-covered socks,.again..the classic black color...I dont know why I keep buying the same color thing..and I spend my money on a fierce pair of gladiator..brown color..It really suits my Tod's collection-look-alike brown Padini bag..and I think it would be great if I paired it with my off-shoulder yellow-golden girl tee and an olive green shorts..or,.yellow singlet and white skirt..maybe,.it looks fabulous with grreen top..ough..I love it so much..it really worth having it...then, I indulged myself with a glass of cold hazelnut coffee and prawn noodle..I cant slurrp my noodle till the bottom..I was so full..3pm..its an 'fruity spend' time..we bought oranges and pear..wreached home around 4 something and I got my feet clean..and did the DIY pedi and mani..re wine for my toe nails and rainbow for my finger nails..I was overjoyed seeing the rainbow shining from a healthy looking nail...I felt rally good...then my sister asked me out again to Kajang..we did nothing much there..just walk around doing nothing..Its more to sight-seeing moment..Love it..I finally an burn my calories during the weekend..

Tomorrow...I will be in Shah Alam..hang out with my friends and have my glaiator on..I am so content when I think of it...and,.the net thing will be..get me and my friends framed..yea...taking pictures just to capture the good moment with them..and after that,.as usual,.I will get them uploadd in my Facebook..Jeez..I hope tomorrow will come faster....

HAPPY DAY

A great Saturday for me..I did the DIY makeover..the result was..voila...not that superb..but its something great that I have done for myself..I finally created my own shades..owhh..and it was awesome..I did the super blend of green on my right eye..and blue+pink for my left eye..I really like them both..I look at the mirror and what I saw 'A Pefect Stranger'..I cant even recognized me myelf..err..too cliche..the truth is..I still love the result though I am just an amateur..well..I cant expect me to become the next Megan Fox..

There was another thing..I finally able to connect the internet by using my own laptop..duhh..I was so stupid that I never asked for my sister's help..Thanks to her..If not..I may be dont have the 'freedom' to download whatever I like on the laptop...err..I wasnt allowed to install the Skype..so pathetic..well..fair enough..that was 'yesterday..I finally can talk+webbie with my cutie-donut..He is not around at the moment..he said he is going for an 'open-house' ..junior-senior party actualy..I dont know what are they doing at the party..hopefully he wont pushing me away after that..well..if he does..there is nothing I can do..a girl should never beg the guy to stay because the guy wont listen to the girl..ever..ehm..no big deal tho...he is not worth for me to cry if he really do pushing me away..ough..I just received an e-mail from my donut..and he said he is not notty..thank God...Love you so much sayang..

IM SORRY DONUT..

I guess tonight is the most 'idiot night' to be called ever..damn..and its not funny after all.I was talking to my Donut in MSN..we were chatting..and webbie..then I told him that my brother-in-law just came back from Jeju Island.Then I told him,.to be surprised we were fought for a small thing..seriously stupid.It was just because that,.he never told me that he had been to Korea.Well,.I have been asked him last time but then,.he just cant recall..God,.I was out of my mind when I threw him with the questions..this and that..and I was even mad at him..stupid huhh..I dont know what had driven me this far..I feel bad..because I cant control my anger well..and what even worst,.I already hurt my Donut...pity him..sorry Donut..I feel so guilty...

I MISS HIM

I woke up a bit early this morning..9am..sharp on the nose.A short call from my friend made me threw the nice dream.Huhh..movie on Wednesday?.its a brilliant idea..really.My life quite boring and blue lately..I got no friends whom I can talk to,.I cant goin in and out of the house like how I used to be before..well..I should get a life now..I am not living with my own..and I cant just going back home at three..not at 12..either.So,.all I could do now is just waiting for friends asking me out..having lunch together,.shopping,.movies..ough..anyhting I could do in the mall..I just dont mind.OMG..!..Obviously I could tell that my life is so boring right now..I seriously need friends to hang out with..and I couldnt believe that the shows on TV could make sleepy..what even more.,I getting really bored watching all those DVDs collection..It seems like I seriously got nothing to do at home..and I think that I looks like a girl who wants to 'preserve' herself for a few months before a wedding day...boring...

As usual..I would waiting for a call..from my little-cutey-donut..I miss him so much.I wonder why didnt he gave a call this morning..did he forget or something..and my mind was going wild..I was so afraid that he purposely 'forget' to call me..and finally my donut ring me right after I stepped out from the shower.He told me he was kinda busy since the sun rise itself..ough..really??..and no lie??..well,.I think if its true that he told a lie..theres nothing I could do.So..just let it be.It will show itself someday if its a lie..see..I just couldnt stop myself thinking about a bad thing when I stucked at home.Seriously,.I need to get out meeting some friends,.and having fun,.shopping,.watching movies,.I think Id betther check the new released movies in town..or,. maybe I should do something with my closet..trying to mix-and -match the shirts for tomorrow outing...

1st of June

1st of June..it brings lot of meanings to my life..10 years back,.I would really enjoyed the 1st of June gathered around with my family members,.cousins,.and also friends.We laughed,.sharing those stupid and funny things,.listening to the folks about their love story,.so many things to do during the 1st of June..especially on 31st of May..well..its a Harvest Festival..also known as Gawai Festival..we,.the Dayak community celebrate the 1st of June,.or Gawai as to thank the God for all his helps..We thanked Him for giving us a chance for a longevity,.and we thanked him for bring us all back together..gathered around with each other and we thanked him for His bless for those married couple..And there is something else I like the most when it comes to Gawai Dayak..its the food..I really love the 'manok pansoh',.its a special traditional Dayak's cuisine..chicken in a bamboo..I love its aroma..yet the meat is so firm and tasty..better served with a nice glutinious rice which are all cooked in a bamboo too..some says its a 'lemang'..owhh..yummy...

This year I couldnt manage to celebrate a Gawai Dayak Festival with my family..i found myself stucked in KL..waiting for the 15th of June..ough...I missed Gawai.Well,.I was thinking that though I couldnt celebrate Gawai with my family and relatives at least I could spend a Gawai eve with my boyfriend..plus its his birthday..1st of June..I was kinda busy trying to upload a birthday picture for him..and besides that,.I was planned to write a poem,.a love story..but something happened and I just shut my PC down.I couldnt even manage to think of the word..I was totally freaking shocked and I didnt know whether I should believe on what had happened..just now..my own boyfriend say that kind of thing to other girl..whilst we were still on the phone..(MSN)..'I saja nak dengar suara u lagi'..ough..what the hell is that.It seems that I wasnt exist..as far as I know,.I never being 'manja-manja' with other guys..shemale..yes..I do..but oh come on..a shemale is different..they would never like a girl..but as a friend..well..maybe yes..but,.I think there is something good after knowing the truth..at least I wont feel guilty after this.Yaa..who knows what might happen to me..maybe I would meet someone special and going out with that guy..woww....I finally feel so relieve...it seems like I have just won a ticket to a 'Guys fiesta'..