1st of June

1st of June..it brings lot of meanings to my life..10 years back,.I would really enjoyed the 1st of June gathered around with my family members,.cousins,.and also friends.We laughed,.sharing those stupid and funny things,.listening to the folks about their love story,.so many things to do during the 1st of June..especially on 31st of May..well..its a Harvest Festival..also known as Gawai Festival..we,.the Dayak community celebrate the 1st of June,.or Gawai as to thank the God for all his helps..We thanked Him for giving us a chance for a longevity,.and we thanked him for bring us all back together..gathered around with each other and we thanked him for His bless for those married couple..And there is something else I like the most when it comes to Gawai Dayak..its the food..I really love the 'manok pansoh',.its a special traditional Dayak's cuisine..chicken in a bamboo..I love its aroma..yet the meat is so firm and tasty..better served with a nice glutinious rice which are all cooked in a bamboo too..some says its a 'lemang'..owhh..yummy...

This year I couldnt manage to celebrate a Gawai Dayak Festival with my family..i found myself stucked in KL..waiting for the 15th of June..ough...I missed Gawai.Well,.I was thinking that though I couldnt celebrate Gawai with my family and relatives at least I could spend a Gawai eve with my boyfriend..plus its his birthday..1st of June..I was kinda busy trying to upload a birthday picture for him..and besides that,.I was planned to write a poem,.a love story..but something happened and I just shut my PC down.I couldnt even manage to think of the word..I was totally freaking shocked and I didnt know whether I should believe on what had happened..just now..my own boyfriend say that kind of thing to other girl..whilst we were still on the phone..(MSN)..'I saja nak dengar suara u lagi'..ough..what the hell is that.It seems that I wasnt exist..as far as I know,.I never being 'manja-manja' with other guys..shemale..yes..I do..but oh come on..a shemale is different..they would never like a girl..but as a friend..well..maybe yes..but,.I think there is something good after knowing the truth..at least I wont feel guilty after this.Yaa..who knows what might happen to me..maybe I would meet someone special and going out with that guy..woww....I finally feel so relieve...it seems like I have just won a ticket to a 'Guys fiesta'..